Jeno Liu~

Ah my love for cpop just continues to grow and grow especially when i recently started to listen to the amazing Jeno Liu (Jeno Liu Liyang) *-* from Beijing, China. Her music is amazing and her style ah ultimate girl crush.

lets admire her looks for a few seconds..

 

 

 

.....isn't she just flawless ;A;

but now lets not just go by looks. Lets listen to her amazing voice and songs.

劉力揚 - 旅途 (官方版MV) 

劉力揚 - 眼淚笑了 (官方版MV)

like her on facebook https://www.facebook.com/jenowaili

her blog: http://blog.sina.com.cn/liuliyang (sigh wish i knew chinese ~_~) 

FOREVER 21 HAUL

This will probably be my LAST shopping haul :( because i'm saving up to get a car *-* it's like CAR> shopping seriously. So heres my haul i only spent about 120$ /*0*/.

Pretty earrings and a long black/gold chain *u*



This jackt has to be my fave ugh love it so much



Simple Cami's are the best



sheer shirt with gold buttons MUST HAVE

ugh i saw A LOT of stuff i wanted at FOREVER21 but i had to control myself. I currently have an obsession for anything gold, black, and anything sparkly. 

CPOP~

These videos came out in August 2012 but i'm listening to them now haha. I haven't been keeping up with my cpop blogs -__-; but check out these videos..

Angela - That Girl

Jolin Tsai - The Great Artist (fast forward to 1min hate long intros -_-)

Will Pan~

MIC aka Made In China [lol] finally a new cd~ check out this post to preview some songs and download the latest CD here at my fave site ihonhon.

all the sudden i got super lazy LMAO go to my fave fave FAAVE cpop/cmovie/cdrama/cnews everything chinese basically :3 ---> http://aiyatheydidnt.livejournal.com

New York Dreams~

picture by juan_paulo@flickr.com

how amazing would it be if i can move to NY? i mean that's all i've always talked about living in New York being near the city. Idk many people that live in NY say meh it's not a big deal i know i know once you live somewhere for a loooong time it gets boring i bet. I just hate Maryland there is nothing here. Sometimes i feel like i live in the middle of nowhere even though DC and Baltimore are just about 30-40 mins away. But idk i been to NY several times and it doesn't get old for me. I wouldn't just sit at doing nothing all day if i live in NY i'd probably go site see, go to the museums, central park, bridges, look for amazing view spots, and just explore everywhere eat amazing food ugh idk it sounds like a great dream.

BUT dreams are hard to make reality. I wouldn't mind living with my friend Melissa :3 i think she's great and probably the only person i trust in NY right now. We could share an apartment split the bills costs. I don't mind. I want to move away also because i just can't stand the pressure at home. The constant arguing and fighting from my parents. Sometimes it drives me insane to the point where i just want to cry and just walk out take a 3 hr walk ( i still don't have my bike =_= i wouldn't mind escaping on it for a couple hours). I need to think realistically though the costs, finding a job, and schools most importantly. I'm trying really hard to get good grades so i can transfer to a school in NY and get scholarships :3. It would be hard adjusting to a new place getting to know the area balancing work and school. NO MORE mommy and daddy just everything on me. gosh it sounds so overwhelming O_O but i am going to turn 25 soon and i think it's time i left the nest >.> lol.

New York Dreams

Sometimes i wonder...would i truly be happy if i moved to New York? OR is it simply just because of guys. Will i feel happy walking down the street filled with tall buildings. i will most likely be alone. i have always been alone and it isn't foreign to me anymore. i do a lot of things alone go to work, shop, eat, watch movies just about everything. why will chaning my atmosphere change that for me. sure i know several people in new york now. great people some of them. or very few of them. Will moving to a huge city make me happy being surronded by so many people? will it will it. i wonder if it will. i always dreamed of moving to New York. I dreamed about being in New York with you. holding hands walking down the street at 2am it was dark. all i remember was your smile your laugh the way you held me close. i remembering being so happy in my dream. it was true happiness that i never felt. than i woke up. shock wave of intense pain ran through me. it was all a dream. a dream that won't ever come true. how i wish for once my dream can come true. i don't care for money clothes jewelry flowers i don't care about that i just want to be happy. i want to feel loved. maybe new york. maybe you are my happiness.

Rain.

It's raining outside.
I like the sound of the cars passing by and that swish swish sound you hear.
the sound of the rain hitting the window.
it's soothing in a way.
i have this thing for umbrellas. in love with them obsessed actually.
i had this dream once of you holding an umbrella and walking towards me.
it was pouring outside and you held that umbrella over me
you held me closed and told me let's go home.
that feeling of someone protecting me being there for me.
that's how my obsession started i guess.
when i think of umbrellas i think of protection.

what's the point?

sometimes i wonder...
what is the point of trying or doing anything
why bother with people that don't give a shit about you
you try and try
keep texting them they ignore you
they stop calling you
they quickly disappear
but once you were everything to them
once you felt like you were so special to them
it was a amazing feeling
the high i felt from simply feeling wanted was great
that's all i want is to feel wanted
what's the point anymore to try with someone new again
it will just end how it always does

New York

Hello world it has been awhile!! sorry i'm just so lazy to even type lol  ヾ(´(ｴ)｀ﾉﾞ  . But i am back. Over the weekend i went to New York. I haven't been back since my last visit of Halloween weekend of 2011. Man that wasn't a pleasant experiance. Filled with so much pain and heart brake. How crazy am i to sit ona  bus for four hours to try to save a relationship that is only one sided. sigh..i need to let go of the past. When i arrived in New York everything looked familiar..past memories kept flashing in my head..where we first met..where we stayed...places we went. My heart hurt. My heart was really braking my eyes filled with tears because i wanted it all back. Somehow i wish i could turn back time and have it back. Meh. I need to let the past go time to move forward. Suffering, Pain, and Emotional stress...not worth it especally for someone that didn't give a shit. In the end you just end of torturing yourself.

ANYWAYS ヽ(ー_ー )ノ

I had a great time. I had my friend i've known for years show me around New York City. BUT before i get into that i was by myself for like 2hrs so what did i do?? i went to Macy's OMG yo it had 6 floors i was like e_o but how??? i was trying on clothes and realized i need to lose a little more weight lol =_=;;

just a picture for my referance -_- this will be my before picture.

I sat outside waiting for my friend saw this...

it was prettier in person :3

Than i was freezing my ass finally i saw him walking towards me i was like *-* welp. We walked around times square he was like my tour guide lmao he was so cute ∪･ω･∪. We went to dave and busters to meet with his friends they were nice :3 and funny. Than we walked around more of the city til my feet hurt ugh. We went past times square and it was so freakin nice. It was quite not too many people around. Went to the apple store...mmm got some food and sat down outside eating. It was really nice..something i always wanted with someone. Maybe someday maybe i will find someone that feels like that for me. That wants that with me. We got on the train we were laughing on the train...walked to his place. Than we passed out asleep at his place haha.

Woke up..and met with one my tumblr friends ( ⌒o⌒)人(⌒-⌒ ) Melissa aka Bogoshipo one of my fave people actually. She was so cute! we went to the sakura festival in brooklyn wasn't that lively but it was still nice to see the garden the fishes, the carp, and the beautiful structures.

Than we walked around china town got some stuff...

Had Korean BBQ for the first time (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ

Than i left and now i am back in Maryland. Sigh. So many feels over the weekend mainly thinknig about the past. I realize that i have been very stupid in the past with how i dealt with guys and relationships and i need to stop that. I am almost 25 and making stupid fuckin mistakes. I need to grow up. OMG i'm almost 25 in august going to go get my license （´・｀ ） it is time.

all for love~

yesterday i was bored at work doing nothing and what do i do when i have nothing to do watch bollywood movies ~*0*~ i really wanted to watch a movie with Shahid Kapoor. Sure he is so damn sexy but can he act? so i chose JabWe Met with Kareena Kapoor. Ugh it was sooo good brought me tears like always =_=.  <~~ Isn't he just so dreamy *-* The movie starts with Shahid out of it. Like something terrible happened oh gawd it was so heart braking. He's on a train heading to who knows where he doesn't care the pain he feels is numbing him and that's where he meets Geet (Kareena Kapoor) crazy girl that smiles at everything just has a outgoing bubbly personality. This movie reminds me of myself a lot haha. Get on a train (bus) to see the person you love no matter the distance or the trouble you have to go through you just do it because seeing that person means everything to you. Yeah that was me. I loved you so much i wanted to see you so bad that 4hrs on a bus meant nothing to me. *sigh* i cried so hard in the scene where everything fell apart for her. It reminded me of the pain i felt when it all came crashing down. -_-;;; watch it here in HD ^_^

love makes us do foolish things. but i'd do it all over again.

fave song from the movie...

Tum Se Hi



wish list

most of the people that know me know that i am a shopaholic *-* no shame haha. I love love love LOOOVE to shop. I shop pretty much every week or go on a major haul every two weeks. My favorite store is Forever21 sure there's plenty of stores at the mall like H & M and Charlotte Rousse but i really don't like their clothes :x not really my cup of tea. Forever21 just fits me amazing and they have great stuff. BUT here are some things i am craving for :3

Vintaged Denim Vest (F21)

$15.80

Sheer Cutout Back Shirt

$22.80

Sheer Button Up w/Lace Yoke

$15.80

Lush Striped Top

$24.80

Mesh Chevron Stripe Bodysuit

$14.80

 

a lot more on the website i just want everything \*0*/

don't settle.

it's funny everyone that i have talked to that has heard me cry on the phone over some stupid guy. always tells me "Eva don't settle" Don't settle just for any guy just because he tells you nice things. They need to PROVE that shit they say. They're right. I always go for words i always believe in what they tell me. Yet they never do what they say. If you tell me you love me show me. If you tell me you miss me show me. I mean it's not that hard. I think i have finally become a little hard in the heart. Before i used to be all soft and let anyone in. As soon as someone showed me some attention spat some cute words i'd be instantly crazy over them. But now i just don't buy it anymore. I'm getting very picky now and even if you are a cute oppar i'm not going to fall for your stupid words if no actions follow. just show me. Plus i want someone where i can actually be my silly goofy self around without feeling awkward. I can't stand guy that are so serious =_=. I am super shy than you get all mad because i don't open up. WELL maybe if you know how to charm a girl and make her feel comfortable i wouldn't be so shy. ugh. any ways...

Blah honestly relationships are stressful +_+' i will only go through with it for someone that is worth it. All i need is affection, someone to lean on when shit gets tough, and schex lol. Just want someone to need me as much as i need them.. so to everyone else don't settle just for anyone. relationships mean a lot to me. Remember they can only lead to two things marriage or break up.

shop shop

i have a horrible shopping addiction and i don't care \*0*/ haha. I went to Forever21 after work and got some goodies...

-2 Tank Tops

-2 sheer blouses

-leggings

-Bracelet

-Black handbag i been looking for weeks

-Yellow Pants

-Bath robe/ spa socks (not shown)

blue.

i got new shoes over the weekend. *-* flats from DSW I also got black sandals. Wore them to school today and someone asked me if they were payless e_e I was like uh what?!?! nah DSW. I could tell she was jelly or some shit because soon as i walked in the bathroom she gave me the head to toe stare down like um what did i do O_O;; meh oh well. I adore them.

lately i been feeling so blue (haha big bang blue pretty much describes my feelings) idk man i can' be playing games around with guys. nope i wasn't dumped never was in a relationship (haha) just when you feel someone is trying to BS you sucks. oh well. i should stop chasing guys. I keep longing for this thing called affection...i long for love so much. it kills me sometimes. it becomes destructive. i obsess over it. but i think i've come to my end. i try to believe not everyone is full of BS but lately everyone is full of shit. so i give in. i'll just stay alone. 

\*0*/ Shopping~ kinda

Yesterday after work i decided to go to Ulta yea most of you probably are like ulta? wtf is that?? well it's just like sepohra but not as good haha. The nearest Sepohra is way too far for me and i don't feel like making a trip for some makeup -_- but i really want some MAC products. I keep hearing great stuff about their products and i really want to try them out for myself. So here are some goodies i bought...

not a really good quality picture :') bare with me i get super lazy and use my shitty phone camera -_-. I bought some scrunchies, Revlon makeup in purple, Bare Minerals eye liner, Cute nail filers, and eye brow pencils. Let me just review that Bare Minerals eye liner and i am very displeased. It cost about $17 and it's shitty it's not bold how it claims to be and i have to keep applying it over and over just so you can actually see it definetly NOT worth the price  i was really upset with it. 

This is what i eat for breakfast on the weekdays at 5am when i'm at work -_-. It's so delicious and no i'm not vegan i just eat it because it doesn't upset my stomach like most things i eat. I have a very weak and sensitive  stomach. Start of 2012= eating healthy and exercising. 

oh and if your New Years resolution was to go to the gym and loose weight stick to it PLEASE. Yesterday i went to the gym and it was crowded at 12 in the morning -_- it's never that full it's probably just people with their fake resolutions. Don't just go to the gym for two weeks and give up you have to keep fighting take it from a fatty that went from 155->130 ^^ stay strong and don't give in to cravings and work out HARD until you sweat.  (that's my gym face lol)

Also i have been listening to so much Indian music it just makes me so fuckin happy omg. When i feel like shit i go to youtube watch some videos and i'm in smiles...i have fallen in love with Mr. John Abraham