New York Dreams

Sometimes i wonder...would i truly be happy if i moved to New York? OR is it simply just because of guys. Will i feel happy walking down the street filled with tall buildings. i will most likely be alone. i have always been alone and it isn't foreign to me anymore. i do a lot of things alone go to work, shop, eat, watch movies just about everything. why will chaning my atmosphere change that for me. sure i know several people in new york now. great people some of them. or very few of them. Will moving to a huge city make me happy being surronded by so many people? will it will it. i wonder if it will. i always dreamed of moving to New York. I dreamed about being in New York with you. holding hands walking down the street at 2am it was dark. all i remember was your smile your laugh the way you held me close. i remembering being so happy in my dream. it was true happiness that i never felt. than i woke up. shock wave of intense pain ran through me. it was all a dream. a dream that won't ever come true. how i wish for once my dream can come true. i don't care for money clothes jewelry flowers i don't care about that i just want to be happy. i want to feel loved. maybe new york. maybe you are my happiness.