New York

Hello world it has been awhile!! sorry i'm just so lazy to even type lol  ヾ(´(ｴ)｀ﾉﾞ  . But i am back. Over the weekend i went to New York. I haven't been back since my last visit of Halloween weekend of 2011. Man that wasn't a pleasant experiance. Filled with so much pain and heart brake. How crazy am i to sit ona  bus for four hours to try to save a relationship that is only one sided. sigh..i need to let go of the past. When i arrived in New York everything looked familiar..past memories kept flashing in my head..where we first met..where we stayed...places we went. My heart hurt. My heart was really braking my eyes filled with tears because i wanted it all back. Somehow i wish i could turn back time and have it back. Meh. I need to let the past go time to move forward. Suffering, Pain, and Emotional stress...not worth it especally for someone that didn't give a shit. In the end you just end of torturing yourself.

ANYWAYS ヽ(ー_ー )ノ

I had a great time. I had my friend i've known for years show me around New York City. BUT before i get into that i was by myself for like 2hrs so what did i do?? i went to Macy's OMG yo it had 6 floors i was like e_o but how??? i was trying on clothes and realized i need to lose a little more weight lol =_=;;

just a picture for my referance -_- this will be my before picture.

I sat outside waiting for my friend saw this...

it was prettier in person :3

Than i was freezing my ass finally i saw him walking towards me i was like *-* welp. We walked around times square he was like my tour guide lmao he was so cute ∪･ω･∪. We went to dave and busters to meet with his friends they were nice :3 and funny. Than we walked around more of the city til my feet hurt ugh. We went past times square and it was so freakin nice. It was quite not too many people around. Went to the apple store...mmm got some food and sat down outside eating. It was really nice..something i always wanted with someone. Maybe someday maybe i will find someone that feels like that for me. That wants that with me. We got on the train we were laughing on the train...walked to his place. Than we passed out asleep at his place haha.

Woke up..and met with one my tumblr friends ( ⌒o⌒)人(⌒-⌒ ) Melissa aka Bogoshipo one of my fave people actually. She was so cute! we went to the sakura festival in brooklyn wasn't that lively but it was still nice to see the garden the fishes, the carp, and the beautiful structures.

Than we walked around china town got some stuff...

Had Korean BBQ for the first time (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ

Than i left and now i am back in Maryland. Sigh. So many feels over the weekend mainly thinknig about the past. I realize that i have been very stupid in the past with how i dealt with guys and relationships and i need to stop that. I am almost 25 and making stupid fuckin mistakes. I need to grow up. OMG i'm almost 25 in august going to go get my license （´・｀ ） it is time.

all for love~

yesterday i was bored at work doing nothing and what do i do when i have nothing to do watch bollywood movies ~*0*~ i really wanted to watch a movie with Shahid Kapoor. Sure he is so damn sexy but can he act? so i chose JabWe Met with Kareena Kapoor. Ugh it was sooo good brought me tears like always =_=.  <~~ Isn't he just so dreamy *-* The movie starts with Shahid out of it. Like something terrible happened oh gawd it was so heart braking. He's on a train heading to who knows where he doesn't care the pain he feels is numbing him and that's where he meets Geet (Kareena Kapoor) crazy girl that smiles at everything just has a outgoing bubbly personality. This movie reminds me of myself a lot haha. Get on a train (bus) to see the person you love no matter the distance or the trouble you have to go through you just do it because seeing that person means everything to you. Yeah that was me. I loved you so much i wanted to see you so bad that 4hrs on a bus meant nothing to me. *sigh* i cried so hard in the scene where everything fell apart for her. It reminded me of the pain i felt when it all came crashing down. -_-;;; watch it here in HD ^_^

love makes us do foolish things. but i'd do it all over again.

fave song from the movie...

Tum Se Hi



wish list

most of the people that know me know that i am a shopaholic *-* no shame haha. I love love love LOOOVE to shop. I shop pretty much every week or go on a major haul every two weeks. My favorite store is Forever21 sure there's plenty of stores at the mall like H & M and Charlotte Rousse but i really don't like their clothes :x not really my cup of tea. Forever21 just fits me amazing and they have great stuff. BUT here are some things i am craving for :3

Vintaged Denim Vest (F21)

$15.80

Sheer Cutout Back Shirt

$22.80

Sheer Button Up w/Lace Yoke

$15.80

Lush Striped Top

$24.80

Mesh Chevron Stripe Bodysuit

$14.80

 

a lot more on the website i just want everything \*0*/

don't settle.

it's funny everyone that i have talked to that has heard me cry on the phone over some stupid guy. always tells me "Eva don't settle" Don't settle just for any guy just because he tells you nice things. They need to PROVE that shit they say. They're right. I always go for words i always believe in what they tell me. Yet they never do what they say. If you tell me you love me show me. If you tell me you miss me show me. I mean it's not that hard. I think i have finally become a little hard in the heart. Before i used to be all soft and let anyone in. As soon as someone showed me some attention spat some cute words i'd be instantly crazy over them. But now i just don't buy it anymore. I'm getting very picky now and even if you are a cute oppar i'm not going to fall for your stupid words if no actions follow. just show me. Plus i want someone where i can actually be my silly goofy self around without feeling awkward. I can't stand guy that are so serious =_=. I am super shy than you get all mad because i don't open up. WELL maybe if you know how to charm a girl and make her feel comfortable i wouldn't be so shy. ugh. any ways...

Blah honestly relationships are stressful +_+' i will only go through with it for someone that is worth it. All i need is affection, someone to lean on when shit gets tough, and schex lol. Just want someone to need me as much as i need them.. so to everyone else don't settle just for anyone. relationships mean a lot to me. Remember they can only lead to two things marriage or break up.